Thursday, March 05, 2009


Just a note to tell y'all that what Hemingway called the Black Dog is camped on my doorstep. Reality has hit me square in the face and I may have to go to war. I'm not certain what my next move is but I'm going to have to do something so I can survive. When one is dealing with bureaucrats, it isn't easy. I pray that y'all will never, ever have to do so.

I'm too damned old to deal with this crap and it's making me nuts -- or is that nuttier? A couple so-called friends have added to the deterioration of my mental state and needless to say it hasn't helped. The nice thing about difficult times is that you realize who your true friends are and many thanks to those of you in the Blogosphere who have been wonderfully supportive.

I've been doing a lot of thinking and reading to try to put life back on an even keel. I haven't written here because I hate being a drama queen. Believe it or not, housework is good therapy; getting organized and clearing clutter is good for the soul. Sleeping is good, too, when I can manage it. I've also been listening to a lot of old music and will share some with y'all soon.

Here's a song that touched my heart the moment I heard it back in '75 when Janis won a Grammy for it and still tears me up today -- the more thing change, they more they stay the same. Sigh. It probably explains why I stopped going to my high school reunions. Probably that my life feels so insecure is making the old insecurities surface. Sighhhhhhhh.

And never fear. The Friday Groaner will be here in the morning!

Happy Blogging!


  1. Woah... whatever it is, I hope it's not *that* bad. Like, okay if the wolves are slinking around the side yard, maybe, but not growling on your front porch, know what I mean? Wishing you triumphant outcomes & wild excesses of courage.


  2. He isn't growling -- yet. Unless, of course, the bureaucrats aren't satisfied with my efforts to appease them. (Read: stay under their thumb -- or else.) I hope your wishes go from your keyboard to God's monitor!

    Love the photo of Gilda!

  3. That sounds tough. I hope things look brighter soon. It is a hard time fort many people but has really been for you. Sorry to hear it but maybe a brighter day is coming soon

  4. Thanks for the update, Kay. I've been thinking about you. I don't know what Hemingway was referring to, but it sounds a bit bleak. Simply puttering around the house is good in times like these.

  5. I sure know of the problems of dealing with bureaucrats here.I guess these species of inhumanity are the same the world over.I hope your battle gets resolved in your favour,Kay
    I wonder what happened to Janis.

  6. Ah Kay, I know that black dog well -- currently I'm dealing with the bureacrats of health insurance companies -- they work sort of like banks -- you can only get a loan if you don't need one, you can only get health insurance if you've never been sick

    I'm praying for you sister!!

  7. Oh do paint a gloomy picture. We all have our problems, but I do worry about you and your struggles. I really pray things look brighter very soon for you. I pray that something works in your favor and things start to shift your way. Sending you my love and a lot of good vibrations Kay.... Hugs, Joy


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