Sunday, November 30, 2008

Yikes!!!!!!!!!! Self-Assessment!!!!!!!!!!!

My young friend Amy over at An Authentic Life was in assessment mode a while back and I thought it thought-provoking so I decided that, as we approach a New Year, I should do one, too! It's not a meme thing but I'm sharing this in case some of y'all would like to do it, too.

I am: just me. I don't know how to be anyone else and gave up trying eons ago.

I think: far too much. And what does this get me? Nada.

I know: less and less. I find myself constantly amazed at what passes for acceptable in our society. I feel like everything I ever learned is wrong.

I hate: hypocrisy and liars. While I know they have always been there, they seem to be multiplying at an alarming rate.

I miss: my health. And I always will. Yes, I've adjusted very well to my handicap but there always be a part of me that misses that mobility.

I fear: the future. My retirement is not going to be fun unless some changes occur.

I hear: my upstairs neighbor's stereo. I think there's a move in my future.

I smell: coffee

I crave: emotional and physical well-being and chocolate.

I search: for happiness and peace of mind.

I wonder: what's next? Then again, maybe I shouldn't do that.

I regret: a lot. Some one wiser than I said, "A life without regret is a life not lived." I've lived my life.

I love: my friends, my children and my grands even if the last two don't love me back.

I ache: all over. It's a cold, damp day in Ohio.

I am not: anybody but me. I don't know how to be anyone else and I wish people would stop trying to change me. I've finally reached a place where I mostly like myself and will only change at my own behest.

I believe: in God, my country, and the Ohio State Buckeyes -- although the past eight years have tested my belief in my country. For the moment, I have "the audacity of hope". Ask me again next year.

I dance: like nobody's watching 'cause usually nobody is.

I sing: off key with the car radio.

I cry: at the drop of a hat. It's always been that way. It's never gotten me anywhere or solved anything but I do it anyway. Go figure.

I fight: for my sanity. I tap dance on the edge a lot. Depression is my enemy and I battle it almost daily.

I win: rarely. I'm not complaining -- I'm just not lucky.

I lose: with monotonous regularity. In love, life or games of chance, I don't come up trumps.

I never: lie to anyone except myself. I can't lie with a straight face or without guilt. I can do a white lie but no whoppers.

I always: wind up getting hurt. I think I set myself up for it sometimes.

I confuse: a lot of people. I have a lot of weird ideas. If you read here regularly, you know that.

I listen: to everyone. If you have a problem, I have a shoulder open for you.

I can be found: at home mostly. And usually glued to this machine.

I am scared: of not being able to take care of myself. I'm one of those souls who is alone in this world.

I need: more confidence. It's been that way for decades. I never feel good enough. Thank my mother for that.

I am happy about: damned little. I'll spare y'all that list.

I imagine: a better life. And I've been trying to find a way to make that happen.

I will always: pray. It doesn't always get answered but I do it anyway.

Try this if you like and let me know if you do!

Happy Blogging!!!!!!!



  1. I think: You're an amazing woman!

  2. Awwwwwww Colleen -- you aew indeed a sweetie! I'm just me.

  3. I like the fact that you tell it like it is, care so much, and tell the truth to yourself and others.

  4. Awwwww Kay -- I'm just not good at lying. I always get caught. If you tell lies, you have to remember too much. I can't remember anything these days. LOL

  5. Kay just in case you don't read my follow up comment to what you made on my site. Thought I would post it here. Also, Willy does not need to self access the little wife does it for me!
    My Comment to you from my site!

    Willy reads Kay's Groaners often. Yes they are very humorous. But I consider it Deep humor.

    Just Kidding. Maybe I should have listed you under Humor. However, I was thinking back to politics.

    Keep up the good work and thanks for visiting Willy.

    10-4 Willy

  6. Why would anyone want to change YOU?? You're a very honest person and a good soul. I can feel it in your writing. There aren't too many folks like you in the world. Most people live behind a mask, and you're open and real. It's awesome. I think you're wonderful and I loved all your answers.

  7. We're sisters, as you say, and now this proves it....LOL

  8. Willy -- what a great lady you have!

    Scarlet -- you are tooo kind!

    Judy -- yes, we are indeed! B-b-but THIS proves it? Now that's really scary?

  9. You're my new BFF, Kay! I LOVE the "young" adjective!

    I really like that quote about regret. It applies to me, too (probably to all of us).

    You are amazing, and don't forget it!

  10. This post has really made me think. You've stated things so honestly with your responses. I can give flippant answers easily, but I want to mull these questions over and figure out how I really feel.

  11. Amy: Awwwwww shucks, am not!

    Marty: I really have reached a point in my life where I don't know how to be any other way.
    I wear my heart and my mind on my sleeve for better or worse.


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