Dear Gentle Blogging Friends:
I have been, of late, a cranky, whiny old broad. Don't tell me otherwise -- I've been getting on my own nerves! Blame it on on overload; blame it on this damned cold or whatever it is; blame it on some changes that are going on that I don't like or the problems that are ongoing that I can't do a damned thing about. However, I know that I have only to look in the mirror to see where most of the blame lies. I have met the enemy and it is moi.
When I was going through my divorce many years ago, I was terribly stressed and depressed and nearly inconsolable and I got really tired of myself. I finally put on my Thinking Cap and after much deliberation and soul-searching, I realized an important truth: Happiness can be a choice.
My solution? I sat down and made myself a small sign that read: Today I Choose to Be Happy and taped it to my bathroom mirror so I'd see it each morning as I put on my makeup for work. Some days it was an easy choice to make; other days it was impossible but the reminder on my mirror kept me aware that it was MY choice and made it my mission to find something to make me smile -- even gallows humor is better than no humor at all! It helped a lot and soon I was choosing to be happy more often than not in spite of all the turmoil. I was also much more pleasant company.
Saturday, Marcia called and asked me to go to a party at a mutual acquaintance's house. In spite of feeling lousy, I decided that it was just what I needed and I went. I was right and felt much better. Sometimes I sit around here too much and think and that isn't good for me.
That sign didn't come with me when I moved here two years ago -- somehow it didn't get packed. Today I made a new sign in the hope that it will help. Just making it and putting it on my mirror made me feel better.
And now I'm issuing y'all a stern order: If y'all see me getting too whiny and too crabby, drop me an email and TELL ME!!!! I will appreciate your candor and concern. I care about y'all greatly and I feel badly that I've not been my usual crazy self.
Thanks to y'all in advance!!!!!!!!! As the late, great Cab Calloway used to say, "I love you madly!"